This is the first time in a long time I am gonna post somethin foreal. Tonight we really talked. We talked about basically how awful of a person I was when I should have shown her how I felt. I always cared about her. I always felt something for her, yet I was too scared of who she was to actually pursue it. I still smell her on my hands. Her eyes are so fuckin amazing. I kept tellin her to look at me and everytime she did, I would get lost in her eyes. In all honesty, Everything about her is amazing to me. She just looked gorgeous from top to bottom. I miss her now, I miss her all the fuckin time. Its fuckin killin me that we aint together, but I completely understand where shes comin from in what she says. Why should she even give me a chance, when all I did was pass up on every chance she gave me. I was one of the few people she actually trusted, and I turned away from her everytime. I never forgot that first kiss. NEVER. I lied to you when I told you I wanted to be just friends. I know now you were always the only one for me.